Ovulation time is approacing - a time to reflect

Well, it is getting close to my ovulation time and it pains me to know that I am back here again with the whole trying to conceive thing. I just never thought things would happen the way they did. I never thought I would suffer one loss, let alone two. I so totally feel like my body has let me down and let Dave down. I am just among the luck bunch that gets to go through this. I know that sounded sarcastic as it was meant to. I guess I just get so frustrated every now and then with how things have went.

So here I am on CD13 and if everything is normal with my cycles I will be O tomorrow. Dave and I are making no big point to try this cycle, but if I do happen to get pregnant it will be a happy day of my life. Although I will be very scared while I am pregnant, I know that this baby will be a keeper since we know what is wrong this time. I really am hoping for a miracle this month. In the meantime Dave and I have been working on the beach theme room, which will one day be the nursery. Things are going pretty well. I will have to take a picture and post it. Here is to a stressful time with O close by.